Happiness Playlist <3

Going to the dr today, so I need to make a cheer me up playlist! I'll be adding to this as I add more songs :)

1. The Wombats - Let's Dance to Joy Division
2. The Holloways - Generator
3. Colbie Caillat - Bubbly
4. Counting Crows - Accidentally in Love
5. Jack Johnson - Banana Pancakes
6. Ice Cube - It Was a Good Day
7. Hellogoodbye - Here (In Your Arms)
8. Jason Mraz - Geek in the Pink
9. Jessica Simpson - A Public Affair
10. Kelly Clarkson - Since U Been Gone
11. Metro Station - Shake It
12. Monkees - Daydream Believer
13. Natasha Beddingfield - Unwritten
14. Spice Girls - Wannabe
15. Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue
16. The Beatles - I Want to Hold Your Hand
17. Natalie Portman's Shaved Head - Beard Lust
18. The Killers - Mr. Brightside
19. The Airborne Toxic Event - Gasoline
20. Art Brut - Pump Up the Volume
21. Chiclete com Banana - Menina Me Dá Seu Amor
22. Crime Mob - Stilettos (Lol yes this song makes me happy!)
23. Cute is what We Aim For - Sweet Talk 101
24. Rilo Kiley - Silver Lining
25. The Fratellis - Flathead

Where pleasure moments hung before the takeover...

In the past guys have lied to me. They tell me what they think I wanna hear just to get whatever they want from me. They played me as dumb. But I'm not dumb and I saw right through their games. And sadly, I have lost trust. So now if I even saw a good guy, I'm not sure if I would even realize it or just see his actions as the bullshit I am used to. It's pretty sad. I have a simple message for those I let in and who played me for a fool:

Fuck you for saying you loved me and not meaning it. Fuck you for throwing around that little word. Fuck you for teaching me that the majority of people who say those three little words don't really mean it. FUCK YOU!

There's a song that really speaks to me right now, Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap. Here's a few choice lyrics.

Mmmm whatcha say, Mmm that you only meant well? Well of course you did!! Mmmm whatcha say, Mmmm that it's all for the best? Of course it is!! Mmmm whatcha say? Mmmm that it's just what we need, you decided this???? Speak no feeling no I don't believe you, you don't care a bit, you don't care a bit, oh no, you don't care a bit, oh no, you don't care a bit!!!

Let's just say, it says more to me in a way that no man has ever said anything to me. That way is complete HONESTY.

Let me just get to the point. If you have a penis, there is a 99% chance I DO NOT TRUST YOU. Your sweet little words are just that - WORDS. And like my girl said, KARMA IS A BITCH! You will get yours for treating us how you do! And i feel sorry for you!

I'm not completely jaded. I've seen good men, I know they exist. The problem is they are usually chasing after the bitch! I know the perfect man doesn't exist, I'm not that naive. But is it really to much to ask for one who doesn't lie to you every other word out his mouth? Or one who is mature enough to end a relationship respectfully and not just fuck things up even more by stupid little games?

I know that women do this too. I'll be the first one to say that women are bitches and that many of them are evil. The thing is, I AM NOT ONE OF THOSE WOMEN. I really could care less about the ones that do these types of things to their men because their evil ways do not effect me. They, like the bad men, do ruin things for the good ones. The guys they hurt, the good guys, the ones that should be with me, they will just go chase after one like their previous. Like I will. And this is why.

People say to me "you shouldn't deal with guys like that anymore". The bottom line is, they lie and portray themselves to be someone else in the beginning. Do you honestly think if I knew they were like this, I'd give them of time of day? After everything I've just preached?

As for the good guys out there, please stay that way. Treat your women like queens. Be a good influence to those guys that hurt us. It's all you can do and it's all that I ask.

And yes everyone, I'm fine. I'm just speakin my mind, is it a crime?

the sweeping insensitivity of this still life